For a long time zoloft made me functional, I was happy, I wasn't anxious all the time, I had the motivation to do THIS gestures to everything everyday. About two years ago it stopped working and I have gone through many meds since. Frankly none we're as good, some were straight up hellish, a few made me crazy, and one made me want to end it.

I just don't want to do this all the time. It is so exhausting. I have done it for 12years I don't want to do it for another 70. I don't want to do, or rather I don't think I'm cut out to the thing I dedicated 7 years to learn and paid thousands of dollars for. I am living in a harder style bedroom because I can't get the energy or motivation to fix it. The worst part is, I don't wanna give up, I just don't really see any light at the end of the tunnel.