I get told by family I don't have depression bc I don't stay in bed all day crying etc & that I can still meet certain basic hygiene needs.

It kinda hurts bc I feel like I am depressed. I've been close kmw & still struggle with suicidal thoughts. I have OCD so certain parts of basic hygiene are like rituals/compulsions for me (not bathing though I can go week without that) but other stuff yet they assume bc I'm doing that I'm taking care of myself but if anything bc it's obsessive it's actually detrimental.

Depression doesn't mean staying in bed crying all day it's faking a smile when sometimes getting through the day seems unbearable when emptiness feels so heavy when you feel everything & nothing all at once.

But hey I'm not depressed. I just chose to think about suicide & self harm for no fucking reason.