Lately I’ve been pretending everything was okay and I’ve been kinda going on about life. Some things got better and some way worse.

I started playing final fantasy 14 again during a huge wave of stress, anxiety and depression hit and now I’ve been stuck on it for the past 3-4 months.

Everyday it’s the same, wake up, go to work, go home and sleep

But in final fantasy it’s a whole world I could explore, fighting monsters, doing these cool quests, I see me as my character that’s how I envision myself, the kind of world I want to be in where something is exciting!

It takes away from the pain of my life is boring, there’s nothing that exciting, I can’t do these cool fantasy things and’s be seen as some hero.

I’m bored, I want to have something that excites me and this fictional world is a hell of a lot more exciting.

Meanwhile here I am in a world I don’t enjoy, everyday is the same and there’s no escape from it.

It’s a dumb thing to want, it’s a dumb fantasy of mine, But I’m tired. I don’t wanna do the same cookie cutter shit anymore.