I have diagnosed depression and anxiety and as many of you know, those two like to tag team and just beat the crap out of you whenever they get the chance. I’ve been on medication on and off for years. I’ve been on for about 2 years now, having changed medication a little over a year ago. It’s been working enough to get me by.

Well tonight I spiraled. I have no idea what happened or where it came from but I just sank to a very low point where my depression and anxiety were essentially going super saiyan on my poor human self. I got LOW. I haven’t felt like that in god knows how long. I even had moments where the sewer slide crossed my mind.

I don’t know what happened to get me there, but something else snapped me out of it. I still feel the strong depression and anxiety, however it’s manageable now. It was from one minute to the next I just was in a completely different place with a different mindset.

It just made me think how fucking scary this is. How dark one’s thoughts can get. And IF I had given in, where would I be now?

To be clear, any thoughts of self-harm are gone. I do not have a plan or intention to do so at this time.

Thank you for reading. I hope you are able to find the strength to take it one day at a time.