Been on anti-depressants for kinda a while now. I think my life’s good everything good. It’s just me, lowkey it’s just been hard kinda wanna give up at times. Ready to give up….

Like my sex drives a mess, craving for so much physical touch but it’s so hard to get some but the same time everything seems like just an excuse to just live.. idk

Getting high drinking and such… doesn’t mellow the pain no more nothing seems to working for me no more… I really just sound like a bitch talking about it but like. I’m just tired, it’s not really an excuse… haven’t told my anyone how I felt so I post on reddit.

Been thinking what would my sister think and such or family but the same time. I’m just really tired of life. Kinda been on and off with my feelings. I wish I could just turn them off. It just annoiys me… I put a smile on so that everyone knows im okay but inside im really not… being seen as someone who just being happy all the time… kinda hurts cause I wanna reach out again but most of the time I reach out there’s no point anymore so who cares really…