The last years of my life have made me feel depressed to the brink of suicide. I have kids, which is why no matter how bad I feel I won't harm myself.

About 10 months ago I began using pot pretty much daily to cope with depression. My kids don't live with me so don't worry about me exposing them. I decided to quit smoking cold turkey about a week ago because I thought I wasn't achieving all I could achieve. But now the depression has come back worse.

I am lost now. I don't know how to find another way to relieve my depression or if what I'm feeling is the result of quitting pot. I did a little light reading and I see that there are not so many studies on mariguana withdrawal.

Nothing gives me joy. And I'm becoming asocial. People around me have stopped talking to me. I think because there's not much of me to entertain or interest other people. I don't enjoy gatherings, conversations, or parties because nothing gives me joy. I developed such a high tolerance to pot that no one could even tell when I had been smoking. Now I don't know if I should just hang on longer to overcome depression or if I should get back on pot. I know it sounds like I'm rationalizing going back to my drug, which is why I'm putting this out here. Maybe someone out there can enlighten me a bit more on what should I expect one way or another. Thank you for reading.