So, this is my first post here. I'm currently sitting in my room listening to happy by nf on repeat and I just feel like I need to vent out a piece of my depression. I'm just going to come out and say it, I'm a disappointment. I always have been. Ever since I was young. I've always been the disappointment or the slowest to something. I took the longest to learn how to walk or cried the most. Even now, it just shows in life. I cant hold a job, I'm always broke. I count on my mother to help me pay my bills. I was without a job for a damn month and went completely broke. At the same time all 3 of my brothers are doing well 2 of then have their own homes, families and are enjoying life. I mean for fucks sake I literally rent a room from my oldest brother because I'm too much of a fuck up an idiot to save money and just get a damn house! What sucks as well is that this isnt even the only thing that I'm so depressed about. I just want to make people proud, but I know I never well. Shit i barely even graduated from high school. I failed math and it almost kept me from graduating. I'm a fucking failure.