i tried therapy i tried anti depressants but i don’t think anything is working. i don’t like anything about my body from the way i walk, to the way i talk and jsut overall how awkward i am. i have had some terrible life changing experiences this past year that have made me question my self worth and how much i mean to others. i haven’t ever fallen this deep into depression before but nothing seems to be working and taking my own life seems like the least painful thing i can do to end my constant negative self talk. this has been a long way coming i have felt this way for years but this past year has honestly made me realize there’s no reason to keep going there really isn’t if the things that made u happy once aren’t making u happy anymore. i am pretty fixed on ending my life just figuring out the right time to do it. i think life is some sick joke or smthg