I had an extremely horrible day yesterday and by the end of it I felt like the worst thing in the world. I realized I'm not a good person, I try to manipulate people into liking me and in the end it doesn't work. I tried to off myself last night night. Over dosing meds and drinking whatever chemicals I could. I can't do anything right, my life is just one failure after another. All I seem to do is make myself worse, I've spent all day throwing up, and feeling like pure death. Idk what to do anymore. I'm scared. I have no friends, my family doesn't talk to me, and I'm hated at work. I can't even make new friends cause I'm absolutely terrified to tell anyone about my life for fear of them hating me instantly. Between all the puking I haven't been able to stop crying... I've realized just how horrible of a person I am. All I can do at this point is continue to try and kill myself. I'm certain it'll release any burden on people for knowing me and make everyone happy it's all over. I just needed to get this out. I'm sorry if this hurts anyone to read about what I'm doing, I just needed to say it.