I’m dealing with financial problems, job problems, relationship problems, I’ve been spiraling. I’m touch deprived. I have no clue where my next dollar will come from. The other day I tried journaling from a place of gratitude rather than address my very real problems. Today I found out terrible news about an immediate family member, oh and did I mention I’m touched deprived. I’m deep in my depression. I haven’t slept proper in over 2 months. My room is a mess. I can’t focus. I have no motivation. No will to live. I’m numb. I feel heavy. My brain hurts. Prayer is a monotonous activity that I no longer have the energy for. My throat and chest hurts all the time. I want a hug. I want to be held and just cry and lay there. But it’s just me. I don’t want people feeling sorry for me. I am simply here to vent because it’s somewhat of a release. If you’re reading this ask God to give me a break.