Burner account. Can’t sleep and need to get things off my chest. My life is completely miserable and I have no hope it will ever get better. I’ve been miserable for years with just a handful of “good” days sprinkled in here and there.

I hate everything about myself, inside and out. I hate my job. I hate the people around me. I hate strangers. I even hate the fact that I have the occasional “good” day here and there that tricks me into thinking things will get better before life kicks me in the ass and I wind up back here.

I had a spectacularly awful day today and I’m so angry I can’t even sleep. It is 1:30am. I have to get up for work in 4.5 hrs. I truly don’t know how I will make it through this week.