I am a student about to graduate next year and I am just seriously having doubts whether I’m fit for this career or not due to people I worked under not liking me. I used to work as a TA for this one course and I loved it. At the end, everyone including the TAs would get these awards mailed out but you won’t get one if you “failed the course”.This was last December and fast forward to today, I think everyone got them except for me. I asked the other TA’s in the group chat but they just seemed to ignore me or I just feel like they were told not to say anything so I wouldn’t get upset. I could care less about the awards because I am just more sad that this was a position related to the field I wanted to get into but seeing how it came to this point, am I really that dumb or not fit for the field that I’ve been working really hard to get into?

I also worked at a fundraiser event with a group and I made a small mistake when formatting the auction sheet. The leader got mad at me and just didn’t talk to me for the rest of the night but was happily talking to others. I am just starting to feel like I am not suited for any professional job if the people I worked under have a negative view on me because I screw up a lot. It then makes me worry about how I will survive life if I keep ruining everything. I’ve been working on myself mentally and trying to improve my work ethic but shit like this just really brings me down since having a negative view by a lot of employers mean that it will get worse when I actually have a job in that field but I can’t throw everything away.