Laying in bed crying and listening to the pirates of the caribbean soundtrack… at 3AM… why can’t I just be normal? Idk if this is the right place for this but I got just one person who I could share this with… she is obviously sleeping… and also I don’t even know if she really cares… I‘m so grateful that I‘m not thinking about suicide or something but can’t remember the last time I was truly happy… it’s just so hard when everybody tells you „you can do it… just do it… everybody does… you have to do something to get out of your depression“ and don‘t get that the whole point about depression is THAT YOU CANT DO EXACTLY THAT… I‘m at a point where I‘m just broken… I can’t do all this anymore… it’s too much… I just wanna lay in bed and do nothing… I’m not really sure if this post violates the rules… if it does I‘m really sorry and wish for this post to be deleted… have a good night y’all…