I've never posted my feelings for complete strangers to see, but I don't have any other outlet anymore and I'm hitting my breaking point again. I feel so fucking alone and broken. Relationships don't last, my "friends" have all just vanished and I feel like I'm the one having to put the effort in even with my past. I have no family and the ones I do have...whole different story. I turn to showing off on reddit for attention, got heavy on drinking and doing extra curricular activities to cope anymore and I'm just....lost. Putting on a fake smile for work and life just is getting too exhausting and I don't know how much more I can stand