I'm saying this from my point of view. I'm seriously drained and just feel like I lived long enough, seen enough and done enough. I told so many people, if anything happened, just know that I was happy with what I seen and done. I don't really have much more that I really enjoy and need anymore. It's okay for me to listen to everyone say you have everything to live for XYZ, but me saying anything regarding of not wanting to live anymore, that's not allowed and I shouldn't be saying it. One sided as always. But honestly... If someone is already more than happy to say bye and made peace... Why can't people be happy for me and say okay we understand your reasons. No buts, no trying to convince me. Just accepting it my feelings. Thanks.