I'm trying to figure out if I fit into the umbrella of Demisexuality or if there's some other explanation for the way I view sexuality. I'm a straight cis male. I find women aesthetically attractive often, but have difficulty wanting to be sexual with someone without developing a very strong emotional connection first. Even if I am in a good relationship that is emotionally connected and sexual, if I am not feeling the emotional connection at the time of sex I have a hard time remaining erect for it and always feel like I was used, assaulted, and/or raped afterwards. Full disclosure, I was raped in the past on 3 occasions by 2 women, 2 women (one of which was the same as the first time), and 1 woman. Am I demisexual or not? If I am demisexual, is my orientation a trauma response?