Sorry for the somewhat long post...
Okay, so I’m 18, and I’m in a huge change period of my life I’m going to college in about a month and half and the amount of Dysphoria I have is at an all time high. I watch porn and think that people are hot. But the thing that confuses me the most is that I don’t think I’ve ever gotten a boner in public. Never have I had an urge to go have sex. I make jokes about not having bitches and oh I need sex! My virgin ass is so sad. But that’s all a front. I really could not give less of a fuck (for lack of a better term) about sex. Even the person who I have a massive crush on, I have no “Oooh I wanna get in your pants…” I just love the connection I have with her and would love to make that a romantic one but I don’t think she’s ever made me get a boner other than when she showed me her prom dress. She doesn’t like me romantically but that doesn’t bother me because she is a very physical person and I am not a very physically attractive person and can understand that. But going back to college. I feel like in college it's expected of you to hook up with people and have a shit ton of sex or if nothing else getting a partner and getting laid via them. None of that seems appealing to me. I say I'm demibisexual but I don't know I feel like at least right now I am more asexual. I crave emotional relationships and love forming bonds with people. Sex to me is not the type of thing that you do for fun as cringe as it sounds and I am not christian at all. Sex should be more like a bonding of souls then for fun imo. I just am going through a lot of change and then there's the gender dysphoria which is a whole nother wheel house...
I just don't understand my life right now...
I don't know if I'm Ace, Demi, or anything...
Thoguhts??