Doing this one under an alt, because while I love I just found it out about myself and can now figure myself out better, I'm not ready to have it out in the open since it is heavy stuff.

Hi! I'm demisexual I've known for a good couple of months and I've even posted here before iirc. But, yesterday, I had a revelation and ended up realizing I'm demicaedsexual. For those who don't know:

https://www.lgbtqia.wiki/wiki/Demicaedsexual

I guess with this I just wanted to kind of get some sympathy, and maybe compare experiences if any of you are like me out there.

Basically the way I realized it, was I've realized I need to feel some sort of bond or connection for physical attraction to happen, but last night I met a lovely person, and while we did not talk enough for me to feel a proper bond with them, we talked a lot about specific things that made me able to process them as "not a threat". And that was enough for my barrier of not being able to feel attraction (and feeling disgust even) to lift.

I feel like it is really difficult for that alone to happen without a bond (like this was extreme luck maybe) and whenever there is a bond, this is met, specially because i feel I need to feel they care for me and my heart before getting physically intimate, or else my reaction to it is hurt and disgust, and a bond is pretty much always enough to feel that.

Anyway, now I'm just shocked (didn't realize I had trauma this bad at all in the first place), but also extremely relieved I get to know it and work on it and begin moving on. Thanks for taking the time to read, if you have anything to add or comment or say that you feel the same or different, feel free, that's the point of this post! Thank you!

PS: The warning at the end of the wiki link is really scary, and it made me feel afraid to even consider the possibility for possibly longer than I should have been. Maybe we need to change that in some way?