I’ve been out of a relationship for many months now but I can’t let go… I mean she was also my first partner ever and I don’t know we agreed to break up and be friends bc of me being aroflux but sometimes I catch myself wishing for her… she doesn’t really talk to me at all leaves me on read… I don’t know… I guess part of me misses her and part of me wants to be sure she’s okay bc I just care so much but she doesn’t seem to want or need me anymore… so… yeah… I mean… I was in an open relationship with her so I have a partner right now still but sometimes it hurts thinking about her… I guess first partners are the hardest to get over right…? Hah… I mean I shouldn’t have got my hopes up anyway because all relationships especially young ones end… why would I think I’m any different…