I recently joined reddit and also became deist. I came across this subreddit(that's what you call them right?) after spending like 30 minutes at r/atheism and I have to say that you guys are a lot more nice and welcoming and I don't say this just because I became a deist. It's a shame that r/atheism has 2 million subscribers and r/deism only has 3 thousand. I have a problem. I think I may have post religious debate stress disorder (If that even is a real thing). It all started on the day the Paris shooting happened in early November 2015 (can't remember the exact date) when people started criticizing my Islamic beliefs way more than they ever had before especially on youtube since I spend most of my time there. Of course my ocd ass had to look through, read, and respond to every single critcism I saw. I went batshit insane. I would have like 40-50 different tabs all opened at the same time all with different websites, videos, and articles all addressing and responding to different criticisms and at the same time I would be searching through youtube Islamic video comment sections and atheist videos for several hours for more criticism to respond to. There were sometimes so many tabs open with different things that my computer would crash. I would go though days with little to no sleep and would skip several meals researching and responding to things. I remember I once went through four fucking days straight without sleep looking for solutions to criticisms and responding to a youtube atheist. My weight in August 2015 was 171 pounds. In December 2015 I weighed 149 pounds all due to my stress and skipping meals. Another problem was during this whole time I was going to school and had to focus on homework and classwork at the same time. All my free time(saturdays, sundays, winter break,etc.) would be wasted on religious debates whereas before November 2015 I would watch fun car racing videos, play videogames, spend time with my family, and hang out with my friends. I decided to become a deist about two months ago and about one month ago I also graduated highschool. Even though I am a deist I however still get triggered by internet religious debates and certain words. I feel the same way ptsd war veterans feel whenever there hear fireworks or loud bangs. Whenever I see an atheist having a religious debate with a muslim or even a christian(even though I wasn't a christian in the first place) I start to feel nauseous and really depressed even though I am a deist now. It's so bad that word like "religion","atheist","god","Islam", "Muslim", "pray", "science", and "Christianity" trigger me. Do you guys have any help or advice for me? I really don't have anyone to talk to about this and I desperately wish I could feel how I did back in October 2015 and before with little to no things constantly bothering me.