I never gave Saturday Night Wrist a chance before, I always thought it was the worst Deftones have to offer. I even preferred Gore. Today I decided to give it a good listen, another chance, and I don't regret it one bit, it's actually a solid album.

Even though I liked every song (yes, even Pink Cellphone), Kimdracula had a different effect on me, it's like I just got "koi no yokan" to the song (that reference tho), because it sounds awesome, and describes how I feel right now through the lyrics.

I am currently in love with a girl, and even though she admitted to like me back, things didn't go so linear as to simply be together. She can't cope with the feeling of "having a boyfriend", it's almost suffocating for her to think of that, and it's probably because of past experiences. The fact that she's asexual doesn't help in that situation either, it actually makes it harder. So here I am, staying by her side, no matter what happens. The 'Tones are helping me a lot through this situation, and I'm very grateful for this beautiful and awesome band to help me stay strong and not do wrong choices.

This song in particular though, Kimdracula, says what I feel... "I,I really WISH these snakes were your arms..........", it's like I have snakes slithering around me, creating an awful aura that makes her not feel good with this "dating" feeling. I wish she was holding me in her arms instead of having the "unattractiveness and insecurity" hisses of the snakes around me. No matter how comprehensive and careful I am around her, the snakes are simply there.

"I, I really WISH you'd make up your mind". I would love it if she managed to make up her mind about the situation and be able to stay with me... But of course, that's not easy, and I don't know if it will ever happen.

All I can do is lie in my bed late at night blasting this song in a loop on my earphones instead of sleeping, which is happening right now. Without the song and the band's music in general, this would be much harder, and I would have given up by now maybe. I am not sure if anyone is still reading, if so, thank you so much for reading the ramblings of a random Reddit user... If you never gave SNW a chance before, you really should. It's no White Pony or Around the Fur, but it surely is amazing.