And it took everyone 2 years to tell me because I am not on Facebook. I literally drove from Michigan to TN to surprise him for our birthdays we shared. He was my first kiss. My first love. A true love. He helped me though a suicide attempt. He’s was such a good person and I feel so much guilt. His mom couldn’t figure out how to find me. He asked for me as he died. Where I was. And I let him down. I feel so bad. I let my friend down. I wasn’t even aware he had liver failure. He told his BF before that he didn’t want me to know. He knew it would’ve just destroyed me. And it did. Grieving is so hard.

I called his mom and she remembered me coming over for her first time 25 years ago. She remembered making us dinner and us playing with their chickens.

I’m just in shambles over him. Charley felty I truely miss you already. I’m sorry I couldn’t make it And his donor list liver came in 6 days too late.

Please be an afterlife where we all can meet again and reminisce. You won’t ever be replaced.

I’m sorry for this heartfelt rant. But this is day 3 now and I just can’t believe it.