i’ve been feeling very existential recently. its 2:30 am and i just woke up from a dream. in my dream i encounter this person that tells me we have nothing in this life. we have no name (we only give ourselves one), we have no material possessions (we die and leave them behind and essentially they don’t belong to us), we live in a vast universe but only have our perception of it as it exists in our minds. this person tells me this and then proceeds to tell me all we have is our flesh and meat bodies that will one day die and fail to support our life. death terrifies me. and its essentially true. we have nothing. what if when we die it’s nothing — our life and consciousness just stops and ceases to exist? i don’t wanna lose the memories of my mom or the loved ones in my life. it’s terrifying to think about how what if when we die we spend an eternity without the people we love and essentially leave behind everything, our flesh bodies included, and become nothing?? i don’t wanna become nothing and lose the sweet memories of my mom and my loved ones. i’m terrified. i wanna go hug my mom right now. i really wish i could believe in an afterlife where we’re all united. we’re all sentenced to such weird existence with such a weird fate.