I was hearing at a normal level from my left ear (which is moderate-severe hearing loss) and right ear (severe hearing loss) and had a shower.

I think I got water in my ear, and afterwards I couldn’t hear anything at all from my left ear. Nothing.

It terrified me.

I’ve had water in my ear a lot, and it is normally a “Dammit! I’m gonna be having discharge and pain for a week or so”

But this felt different. It is different, because I can’t hear out of it at all right now. It’s been like this since Friday morning and nothing is helping it.

I’ve called my GP and they’re saying “We can have a telephone appointment to see whether you need to come in” and I’m like “I literally can’t hear anything at all, I really need help”… nothing changed their mind, so I’ve gotta try a phone call tomorrow, while I’m struggling with hearing, to then inevitably be told to come in to see them, then get referred to audiology, and deal with all of the waiting and fear involved with whatever might be the issue.

Wanna make matters worse? I’ve got two interviews next week and I’m worried that I’ll have to cancel them because I can’t hear anything right now, and I don’t know when this will get sorted.

I’ve had five angry crying breakdowns today because of it.

I need to have these interviews so I can get another job, so that I can move to this other city and then be closer to my friends, and generally feel better.

But I am probably fucked. No way am I gonna be able to hear them if there’s no change in my hearing.

I don’t know what to do and I’m scared.