For the last month I have tried to stand my ground and not get stuck in the trap of going downstairs to lay beside her because it just makes me horny and her sex drive is a constant disappointment. But sometimes I feel a hunger in me to just go down there and try to rub her body to see if she is receptive or if she just cringes anytime I touch something more than her back or shoulders like she usually does and Ignores the advance. My problem is that this hunger is no longer just for her, I think given the right circumstances I wouldn’t think twice to get my intimacy fix elsewhere… And I hate to say it, but it is her fault. I had no issue staying faithful to her but she chose to be the selfish one and take intimacy away from the relationship. Does anyone else ever feel this way? I can literally get out of the shower naked and walk across the room and her eyes will stay glued to her phone or Ipad. And I mean I’m not some nasty looking guy, I take care of myself, I stay fit. I have vowed not to let myself go because I know if I do that, I have failed her as a partner. So I just don’t get it. I don’t know that I ever will. But one thing I do know is that she is sewing little seeds of temptation in my life by totally shutting me out unless she needs me for something. Anyway, rant over. I hope you all had a great holiday if you’re into that sort of thing!