I'm jesse I recently had a mommy and she had to leave our dynamic bc she got a bf which I respected and ended things mutually. It was awesome she was a great person but now I feel the emptiness of being alone in the dynamic again. No mommy and no attention I just feel alone and everyone says just keep looking keep chugging along but I feel soo defeated. Maybe I'm mentally weak I'll admit but not just a mommy but any attention from any lady in this community instantly throws my excitement into overload. Maybe I'm just living in the fantasy that one day im gonna open my dms and its gonna be flooded with messages from mommys and ladies saying come on to me but I know it's not happening and down I go into a hole. I love this community and I love the attention of cg people as well as the nsfw players I've had experience playing with both. Now I'm rambling but I feel the highs of having a cg are high but when nobody has you I've never been more in the dark. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.