I set my weekly goal for running (not because of DG, I actually only started reading his book 3 days ago, I knew of him but never looked into him, it was by chance through YouTube autoplay after a Kobe Bryant video) and woke up and was not motivated at all. I'd like to say I went for it anyway because discipline replaced the fickle mistress of motivation in my life but it's not entirely true. I drank a coffee and ate quite a substantial amount of chocolate on an empty stomach. It took me a while to put on my running shoes (which are falling apart and the soles are worn out; a fitting allegory to the state of my current life).

At 3k my stomach starts to ache. How couldn't it after my breakfast for the champions. I can give up and I would. The old me would. The old me would search for any reason to. But if I did what's the point in the first place?

Sure, it was the reaction of chocolate and coffee in my digestive system causing the discomfort but it was me who made the conscious choice to consume them. Don't look for external accountability if it can be found within.

At 7k I got stomach cramps. I should give up the pain is making it harder to breathe and the quality of my run suffers. But if I give up I will be taunted by the mental pain of not finishing the 10k because of the environment I have created. I'm holding myself accountable. I'm making a choice between the physical pain and the mental anguish.

I finish the 10k. I've run 69k (hehe nice) since last Friday. If you'd know me you'd know I hate running. I was always about lifting weights. I haven't lifted weights this year. This is about setting a goal and achieving it. It's about getting out, hell or high water. It's baby steps, it's learning a process. It's about finding out that conquering the body is easy if you can conquer the mind.

David Goggins doesn't say anything profound. Anything new. He just puts his money where his mouth is. Unlike those countless gurus out there he walks the walk while they talk the talk only. And that's what's so attractive about him to people like me or you. Chances are your words to action ratio is lower than your Tinder standards. I know mine are.

You don't have to run or put yourself through physical ordeals every day like he does. You have to create those mental calluses the way that works for you. For some it's study, hours of study. For some it's cold baths. For some it's going back to the drawing board and finish the project you are putting off. For some it's to be honest with yourselves and lose that fucking weight. For some it's to own the fact that you are a victim of your mind, not of some boogeyman.

Goggins isn't your hero. You need to be your own hero, like David says in his book/audiobook. Goggins is a tool to achieve your goals. Not the end product.

Stay hard but don't be stupid. And for fucks sake be accountable, finally. Because if motherfuckers like you can do it, then anyone can. Including me. And that's kinda motivating.