30F single for about 6 years. Don't really know why I'm single. Sure, I'm not the most beautiful woman in th world but I'm not unattractive. Smart, funny, confident, good job, great friends, good relationships with my family, well travelled, financially stable, all that. Online dating does not work for me. I have to sit and listen to friends talk about allllll the messages men send them, or male friend talking about how unfair it is that thy have to send the first message when I can remember the last time a guy reached out to me.

OLD makes me feel worthless and hideous. When I've deleted it in the past I feel better about my self, but I also feel like I'm wasting time. I get desperately lonely sometimes, especially now (covid etc.) and i really want to be a mother. I don't want to remove myself from the dating scene...but no one wants to date me so I'm not sure it matters...