I'm not sure how to address this. I realized a girl I was seeing was involved in a situation I was uncomfortable with. I told her if we were only involved sexually it was none of my business, but if we were going to be together romanticly it had to go away. She was embarrassed and said she hadn't been in that situation since she found out all the details of it which weren't known to her prior.

One day she says she isn't quite sure how to handle ending it and I don't push, just say she can discuss it with me if she wants. Less than a week later she says he called her and says his life exploded and she says this is the perfect jumping off point for her and so the situation doesn't exist anymore.

On social media I saw I was either blocked or her account was disabled. She said she disabled it because she was tired of alerts on a site she wasn't active on. Then I noticed the same from his account. I'm a pretty rational guy, in touch with my emotions and able to separate myself from my emotions when need be.

But I completely lost that ability as I imagined them both blocking me as a workaround to our situation. I had a friend check out their profiles to see if they truly deactivated them or if I was just blocked. They are both deactivated.

I feel so dishonest for doing this. We started out because we were both willing to be so honest and vulnerable with each other and we developed a trust that I immediately violated. I want to tell her I did this. It will make me feel better. It will make her feel anywhere from neutral to crushed, and I have to realize her feelings need considered too. Honesty is the best policy 99% of the time, is this a 1% time where I carry the guilt without expressing it?

TLDR, I'm not smart enough to sum up this situation into 2 sentences.