Ok so I’ve been going back and forth with the whole dating, what do I want, am I ready, do I feel good enough? Etc… I had a really rocky marriage and I am still healing. One thing I do know is that I do want to date again when I’m ready.

Anyway- I’ve already deleted the apps at least twice. Paid for one of them (eharmony) only to delete it after a month. I realized I was not ready (see post history) and I didn’t want to add noise. I’m loving my space, time to myself and I’m working on improving my emotional/physical self. I recently just met with an image coach. I’m exercising, eating better. I’m doing things out of comfort zone like visiting a sex shop - YES at 42 I have only been once when I was 20 something 😱😱😱I love traveling but not solo. It is a goal of mine to take my kids abroad soon. Anyway I’m coming into my own person and discovering what I want in my future and my life.

However, I have been fantasizing about discovering a friendship. Someone I can talk to, text with and just bounce off ideas -not necessarily in my zip code. I have my local friends that I am active with but they have kids and are married. I realized I’m looking for something like a PenPal/textpal if something like that exists. Any apps for this? Or do you think it is possible to use the OLD apps for this?