In order to get full context and details I would need to write a novel but long story short I fell in love with my best friend/roommate. She has already flat out rejected me and we went through a toxic free months afterwards due to the nature of the rejection and drama caused by other roommates. We got past all that and have repaired our friendship to the point we feel closer than before, so it’s going great right now.

My confusion comes from my bias I assume, I know I’m still in love with her and I battle with myself everyday to keep it platonic and not be weird and cross any boundaries. I’m under the impression that since we’ve gone to the nude beach together it doesn’t matter if we see each others bodies, yet lately she’s been covering herself up and being extremely self conscious around me. She’s going on dates with other guys and she tells me almost everyone what they did and she is being extremely matter of fact about it all and stressing the fact that she’s not sleeping with them or kissing them. She’s about to move out and made a comment about getting a 2 bedroom in case I needed someone to crash from time to time because I’m unsure about my current housing situation once this lease is up. Her exact comment was “I hope I get the 2 bedroom so I can take in hobos from time to time!” which seemed kind of flirty to me. She’s also been extremely touchy lately and is making physical contact when we interact, which is new because she never really used to do that.

I keep comparing myself to these guys she’s going on dates with and she keeps reassuring me she goes on these dates because she gets food/gifts from these guys but she spends time with me because she enjoys it. Everytime I flirt or give that kind of energy she’s been matching it lately.

I can go on and on but the gist is I keep testing if I’m over thinking and I keep getting the same answer that her opinion of me is changing and she might be interested in me now but since I was rejected before and she said “I will never think of you as more than a friend, you’re not my type!” I’m just confused….

What does it sound like to y’all?