I've been stewing a lot and I'm thinking of telling my partner that I think it's best for our relationship down our future that we are just friends. Knowing me on another level that's deeper than the surface of our former friendship was awesome, they didn't have to be around so much especially on the days I'm drowning in terrible mental health. I feel like it's going to affect us the more we are together, and no not in the way that i'm gonna take it out on him. I have terrible mental health, right now wanting to act on the impulse of doing terrible things.

We shared an intimate moment the first time and then he told me he didn't want this to be anything serious as he wasn't looking for anything currently. Fast forward we didn't speak during the pandemic and when that fiasco was over that we could go out, he got in contact all of a sudden and we ended up seeing each other cause he initiated this. I just haven't felt any deepness from him, although he is a great person. I'm also sitting on the thought that he doesn't like me as deeply as I like him, judging by his background he doesn't really go deep into his feelings either. He's a comfortable and nice person. I just don't want him roped in on my bullshit, friends are friends and can be there for each other at any time reddit.... But if you want me on another deeper level, I can't have you enduring that shit. You get crazy cause live makes you crazy and you want to be on another level with someone so all what makes you tik should be on the table.

I also know what a deep love is, having experienced this with another partner... Nothing can ever come close such a cherished experience like that. I'm starting to feel lonelier.

I don't know how to out it into words to them.

tl;dr bad mental health want to break up with my partner so he doesn't get too involved.