I (27M) am not even sure what to want or expect out of a relationship anymore. Maybe I never even knew what a healthy relationship was. Even if I do figure out what a healthy relationship is, am I really going to actually put my foot down and walk away from a bad one?

Perhaps I need to heal more, but I don't know if I can without having any idea where to go from here. I just feel so alone, and being cheated on sort of crushed what self-confidence I had gained. Looking at things from afar, my ex (26F) was able to replace me so easily. I don't know if I want to replace the relationship with her at this point in time. It is more that I don't even have anyone to crush on, in a sense. To talk to and like. Sometimes I wind up thinking about my ex because there is no one to replace those thoughts with.