So me (22f) and this guy(37m) have been fwb (some may even say casual relationship) since may. I asked him if he was doing anything friday night and if he wanted to hang out and he said no/ok.

After like an hour or so of being there, drinking wine, His friend calls, asking him to come over. I asked him if we were gonna go out OUT and he said no we’re just gonna chill (i have social anxiety and told him i just wanna watch a movie). I was like ok whatever, we went over hung out. Drinking more wine. Her boyfriend comes home. Then its all 4 of us. They wanted to go to strip club, i said no. Then they asked me to go out to a local dive bar a i was like ok fine.

We get there, im sitting next to him. Not many ppl there. He says “im glad u came out” i said me too. Then he leaned in and we started kissing (first time we kissed in public) and he was whispering dirty things to me and i was getting excited and was like ok lets go (his place was only a 2min walk away) then he wanted to say hi to this older guy. he was talking w him most the night then i was talking to his friends. we were all taking shots. I go sit next to him again later on. The old guy (clearly hammered) was like “are u guys dating?” I said no. My fwb (pretty drunk at this point) was like “she just likes how i eat p*ssy” 😳 He said “u should, youd be a cute couple”i said “thanks”.

towards the end my fwb starts hitting on this girl right in front of me…. i actually thought he was gonna go home w her and then where would i have gone?? He was clearly really drunk and i had to basically carry him home bc the way he was walking. Its like im ok if he talks to other girls but dont do it right in front of me?? i was so pissed at him and was like im gonna block him on everything later. idk when i woke up i wasnt as mad bc i was drunk and realized we are just fwb.

What pisses me off was the fact i didnt wanna even go out, he knew that, i told him i was afraid he was gonna abandon me, he said he wouldnt, then he kissed me in public and talked dirty to me then hits on another girl…..idk should i be mad?? Its like if i end it then ill just be lonely, horny, and bored again. I dont feel like looking for another fwb who likes the same things sexually and we actually get along and starting all over again. I dont wanna date anyone right now.