Now, I'm sure this may get a bit ranty, but I would really appreciate yall if you read it all.

I come from a small town. Middle of nowhere. Parents divorced when I was young, my dad is an alcoholic. I got out of my town and out of my high school a year early, and I'm currently waiting to ship off to basic training for the army.

I currently feel the only thing missing in my life is a meaningful connection to someone. I have good friends and what not, but I just feel so empty all the time. What I currently see as a solution is finding someone who cares about me, and I really feel that I shouldn't be looking for that at this age.

People tell me that I'm too young to worry about it, but I cant just deny how I feel, and I genuinely have no idea what to do. Even I did I'd probably have no idea how to do it. I worry if I should even be looking for something like that. If it's even healthy.

So I really dont know. I just want some advice or anything. Hell someone to talk to is always nice as well. I just appreciate anyone who took the time to read this. So thank you if you did...