So I'm m20 and my crush is f20. I asked her out a while ago and she said she was not ready to date but we can still be friends. She never said she did not like me and I'm willing to wait and key hanging out until she is. I like her alot and I can not make another friend, I want a relationship. We're in college and after finals I want to just tell her everything I'm feeling because when we talk in person I feel like she feels the same. But she is really shy and anxious about relationships, like me, so I might be interpreting her kindness wrong. Whenever I try to schedule to hang out with her the plans never come through, and I start to think she hates me. When I see her in person it almost feel like she goes out of her way to talk to me. She knows I will talk and make conversation about anything so it feels like she wants to talk to me like she enjoys talking to me. So why won't she hang out with me even as just friends...

I'm not expecting a solution I just thought it would feel nice to express my frustrations somewhere. I really like her, she is nice and listens to me and I just want to know more about her. If anyone actually read this far you would want to know I never had a relationship before. I she is the first girl I asked on a date and phrases it that way. It hurt alot, I wish I knew why I can never be good enough for anyone.