This is really long winded and messy, I need to get my thoughts out there somehow and ramble, so here it is on my throwaway.

I'm feeling trapped and it's my own doing. I broke up with my one and only partner about a year and a half ago, and I do think I've healing and moved on pretty well. I really enjoy being single, but being around my friends who are either all in relationships or going on dates, it started making me think that maybe I should try dating for the first time (my ex and I were long time friends, and we never had a dating phase). I'm in my early 20s, and I've never downloaded a dating app before so I decided to give it a try. Swiped right on a guy, and his opening message was sweet and creative so I decided to text him back. We had a naturally good texting chemistry, and we really have a lot in common (of course that you can for talking for a short time). Non of the girl friends in my life like the same more "masculine" things i like such as having a huge interest in video games and the men I do have in my life and very comfortable yapping about these interests with..so of course I was super down to chat up these interests and I think he found it super attractive. Okay, I'm getting there! So, we decided to meet up the following day a few days ago after a night and a day of texting. And, well , I'm just not attracted to him. I also learned that I actually really don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship like maybe I thought. We have been texting through the week now, and I'm realizing his feelings are probably only developing and I feel guilty. We do have some super interesting and silly conversations. He asked me on a date this weekend for food, and I said yes, and I haven't replied to his text on where to go yet. And here is where I realized I fucked up. I am just not ready. My horrible flaw is not saying no, and that's a big reason I still need to work on myself before pulling someone into a situation where I only end up hurting them. I get paralyzed with "what-if" fears, and I don't want to face what might be hurting him. We have been on one solid date, and have had a phone call, and spent a few evenings wasting the hours talking about our interests. He is so sweet, and I feel like scum. Does anyone have some advice for how I should go about telling him I don't to be in a relationship?