I expect to be majorly downvoted possibly.

My relationship with her has been rocky over the four years. We met online and we were both hook ups but we had amazing chemistry and ended up getting attached.

She was my rebound after getting my heart broken by another girl with whom I still have feelings for. I’ve gotten attached to the new gf but my love for her isn’t as strong.

I lack trust in her as I have caught her cheating very early on after I disclosed my heart was still with my ex and she had called me while I was out of town working for two weeks.

She later admitted to having an ex over and they had sex. I didn’t feel particularly betrayed for what ever reason, I think because I wasn’t emotionally invested with her at the time. But the deed was done, she apologized and we talked about it and moved on.

I later caught her sexting another ex a few years later. I took this way more seriously and broke up. I dated others, she claimed she did not and was remorseful. We eventually got back together again on a trial basis.

All was well for a while until she started mentioning being bored and wanted to start going out with friends when I can’t due to work or family obligations. It brings out my own insecurities and lack of trust in her. She went out recently to a concert against my will. We got into an argument about it but she chose to go. I don’t think she did anything wrong it’s just the point knowing it makes me uncomfortable.

Now she’s on a week long cruise with the same friends. They paid her entire way. I again was dismayed and disappointed. The day before she left she invited me to go etc… I refused as it was to short notice and it actually kind of felt disingenuous so she could say she offered.

I’m really thinking about ending the relationship at this point. For one I was planning a cruise for us, now she will be less interested since she now has done it recently. I feel shes not taking my own needs seriously. Plus who really knows what she is doing. My mind thinks she could get very drunk and have a fling.

Am I being unreasonable and controlling. There are other issues surrounding some incompatibility issues that some people would not allow. I dont wish to bring those up as I just want to hear everyone’s perspective on what I have mentioned.