I 36m have never had issues finding a sexual partner. Until it was diagnosed with cancer. The cancer i have is terminal. I hope to get a couple more years. That's probably not in the cards. Everytime I tell a woman they immediately change how they talk to me. I am very upfront about what I'm looking for just something casual. Cause long term is just not in the cards. But they will be super interested. Sending nudes, talking dirty. Getting all worked up for even just a one time thing. Then i tell them and bam nothing. Is it gross? Is the idea of being with someone dieing just a turn off? It might sound selfish but damn I just want a friend and a blowjob.