My self esteem has been low lately. I (25F) was seeing this guy (27M) very casually and super on/off for 10 months. We only made out and "titty fucked" because he keeps dragging his feet on getting std tested. The last time I saw him a month ago, we were talking about when we each last had sex and I told him it's been a few months for me and he seemed surprised I had sex. Then later, he was hoping I'd go down on him (I said no) and he said "I think you're scared of blowjobs for some reason" (no it's cuz he still hasn't gotten tested and I tried telling him this).

A week after this, I messaged him and asked if he wanted to drink. He said he was tired so that was a no and I left it at that, but he messaged me a few days later at 2am to say hi. I hadn't replied to this (it's been a couple weeks) because I feel sorta insecure lately about what he thinks of me. He's the most good looking guy I've met, as he's very conventionally attractive, and I feel like thinks I don't know how to do casual and that maybe that's why I'm not doing stuff with him (NOT true. I don't do one night stands, but I'm cool with friends with benefits). How should I handle this?