Okay so basically what the title says, I’m trying to leave. I’m conflicted do I send this whole big text or keep it short like a simple sentence and let it go (I think he’d want an explanation and part of me wants to tell him what he did):

A lot of this is me venting so I know the grammar doesn’t make sense I’ll fix it on later when I’m ready to send it

*****THE TEXT*****

I’m ending this relationship, my reasons are listed below, I won’t beg you to come back and I expect you to do the same:

• Porn - you lied your way through it, you continued to gaslight me throughout our whole relationship until you finally owned up to it. Oh and what’s funny is that your story never matched I was just waiting to see how long it will take you to acknowledge it. Tell me how one of your friends can be logging into your account EVERY weekend we are NOT together, and somehow you don’t realize it? But when I suddenly logged in you freaked out and started spam calling me. LOLLL. Oh and your account was made in the beginning of November in 2023, I checked. Don’t you get tired of lying?

• the girl you texted - that whole situation is messed up, trying to meet a FEMALE behind your girlfriend’s back? Wild. On top of that your story kept changing every minute. It went from “she’s easy to talk to/ I miss he/ I think about her before bed and after waking up” to “I only did it for our relationship so I can move past it” OR “I texted her when we were on break” WE NEVER WENT ON A BREAK (that was in June or July but you texted her in AUGUST), for probably a few hours but we decided it’s not worth it !but wowwwwww it was that easy to go and text her? LOL

• Posting - love how you made a fit when it came to posting me initially

• Unfollowing - didn’t want to unfollow girls you liked in the past or remove someone from your following that you found on hinge after I expressed discomfort.

• Reassurance - forget anything about giving me that, it’s non-existent. If I questioned you about anything it would be the end of the world. (even if I believed you did something after you broke my trust, KEEP IN MIND trust is broken you still made no effort to do anything different.)

• Accountability - I love how you rarely took accountability for your actions, when I had something to say you would love to claim that I’m making you feel like a fiend or a predator, i love how instead of acknowledging how I feel YOU liked to flip it onto me. In theory I’ll feel bad for even asking you a simple question, because you made it all about you = gaslighting

• Silent treatment - I love how when I spoke up about how you are treating me, you’ll give me the silent treatment. Real mature.

• Dates - realistically when was the last time YOU actually put effort in taking me out on a date continuously for more than once in a random week? I wished you would be more romantic with me, but nope you literally didn’t give a shit at the moment, a simple conversation that could have been like “i didn’t realize i made you feel that way, what can I do better or how would you like me to be more romantic with you” BUT NOPE, you got pissed at me and turned away. How mature. You make me feel so unlovable at times.

• Dates again - when I asked you to take me out on dates; I prefaced the conversation by saying “it doesn’t take money to do it” I suggested at home dates or a walk in the park or just searching up anything. But you are so lazy. You said nothing seems fun when you searched it up for dates to do to at home, like what? So you are going to do nothing? And on top of that you said that I only consider something a date when money is involved, are you serious? I prefaced the convo by saying it doesn’t involve money it only involves EFFORT. Doing things that you have to do, like going to get something from the store is not considered a date, like getting food because you are craving it does not make it a date. It’s just something you do (if it’s done more than twice it’s not a date it’s a routine)

• Dates AGAIN - “it’s cold out now we can’t go” or “I was going to do this” or “I was planning that” or “but you couldn’t go” and I’ve literally told you ask me in advance like a man and plan dates because that is your job ???????

• Victim - in any situation you love to make yourself the victim

• Fights - when an issue is between the both of us, you leave me alone to deal with OUR problems. Trust issues? No deal with it by yourself. You said something disrespectful and I still have to pick myself up from that. But when I react to what you said to me or I slip up and say something because it’s my last straw it’s the end of the world.

• Things you have said - you’ve said many things to me but one thing that stood out is you saying “no amount of therapy is ever going to fix your head” such a low and shitty thing to say. Do you remember the context of it? The context was me questioning you when I saw something on your TikTok. And trust was the key factor in this, you saying I won’t be able to trust you, you haven’t done anything to convince me otherwise. Crazy how you flip things onto me instead of having a normal conversation. That’s called gaslighting by the way.

• Acting like nothing happened - literally what it is. You fight with me, leave for hours, you come back and act like nothing happened. The last time we fought (for a misunderstanding by the way, in which you owned up was your mistake), you came back with food as your only excuse to meet me. When you saw how seriously upset I was is when you decided to have a conversation. So immature.

• Disrespect - you are so disrespectful, and speaking on disrespect, when I say something that is on my mind even though I didn’t word it wrong you love to claim my tone is wrong or I’m being disrespectful - GASLIGHTING or NOT taking ownership of what you have done. If me stating what you have done makes you look bad and makes you feel bad, that just sucks, be a man. On top of this the fact that I almost everyday have to tell you to “not speak to me like that” about anything is more than what I should put up with. Sometimes I feel the need to record our conversations or wish I recorded it just to listen to you telling me that I’m lying about something when clearly I’m not, you just love to flip my words on me or you like to create your own definitions of what I’m saying instead of clearing it up with me.

You’ve done more than what I have listed. I just don’t feel the need to write more because it’s useless; what’s done is done.

I am the way that I am because you broke my trust and my heart. And then you expect me to stay and sacrifice my sanity for it, because you think what you did was something mediocre. I don’t know what could have happened between the two of you if you met, but it’s so so disgusting you wanted to meet a female all alone without my acknowledgment or approval. Let’s see if the roles were reversed, you would be pissed

If you think loving me is cuddling me to bed or bringing me food and watching shows all day long, I don’t want it. It’s in places where you care for me when we are having a fight and you do not belittle/disrespect me, it’s when you are honest and you don’t lie, it’s where I don’t have to question your loyalty, it’s where I don’t have to worry about bringing things up to you because you will refuse to understand me or get pissed if I discuss it, and it’s especially where I don’t feel unlovable even though you’re right next to me.

I have no items of yours, and you don’t have mine. Do not contact me again. I love you but I love myself more enough to not deal with this bullshit. I wish you well. Bye.