Hi y’all, I was FWB/booty call situationship with this guy, 20M. He would come over 2-5x a week, we would have sex for a few hours, then he would leave. He was very sweet with me, and I somewhat caught feelings esp since he was so understanding abt my gender identity. He would be staying for his academic program for another two years and I was about to graduate and move back home, so if figured once I left things would fizzle out. He knew I was leaving btw, it wasn’t like a spur of a moment thing.

We had sex the night before I left, and I won’t lie I cried. To my surprise, he also cried and said he was going to miss me. I asked if we could keep in touch and he said yes and to let him know if I ever came back to visit. He even gave me his shirt at my request lol. After that, we texted every other day (which we weren’t doing before I left). Then we started having movie nights at least once a week.

Then, two months after I had left, he ghosted me. Never responded to my texts so I left it alone. I was also dealing with my own shit so I figured that’s where things ended. Once I realized he really was never gonna text me back, I deleted his contact and removed him from my socials.

He hurt me real bad by doing that, I won’t lie, but I never thought it would hurt this severely. We had the best sex we’ve ever had (admitted by both of us) and we had really great chemistry. I knew realistically long distance doesn’t often work, especially since we weren’t dating, but I think he got my hopes up with the texting and movie night. He ghosted me back in late August/early September and I won’t lie, once it hits 1am I can’t stop crying over him. He ain’t a bad guy, just immature I suppose.

Last time I cried over a dude was in high school cuz a crush rejected me. I just need someone to smack me out of it. I knew our situationship would end in hurt but I guess I figured he would tell me if he wasn’t interested anymore or something, not just ghost and leave me in the dust. Idk :(