So umm let’s see. I’m currently in a panic mode cuz my emotions are going haywire and such. I have been a part of a T4T relationship with a really attractive girl who is in a poly relationship and is currently engaged.

We have met up several times a week to just hangout and talk super deep questions about life, relationships, trauma, you name it. And as well as the sexual aspect of the relationship is peak for both of us. But recently(past 2 days) we have confessed that we have mutual feelings for each other, however we did not want these feelings and they have personally suggested to “put up a wall” and let this simmer down for a while.

While I think this is a good idea, I’ve never felt this way before and now I’m trying to suppress all these emotions. Which while actively taking estrogen is a nightmare. Any tips on just “looking the other way” or something like that. I don’t know how to shut down my feelings of love for this person. Sorry if this is some sort of impossible question. Idk I feel scatterbrained rn.