Hey guys, in relation to this story there’s sooooooooooooo much information but I’m gonna try and simplify it as much as possible. Me and my best friend have been close for around 3 years now and when I say close I mean CLOSE. Anytime someone new sees us around each other they think we’re dating and ask if we have feelings for each other, practically all of our mutual friends ship us together and say we would look cute/we both have feelings for each other but we always denied it. Let’s call my best friend X for the sake of this. X is an extremely attractive curly haired tanned petite woman, she’s an egyptian that I have developed feelings for without knowing and I have no idea what to do. There’s a lot of detail about how me and X are and the things we’ve been through but I won’t go into that rather i’d stay on the aspect of how we both are currently.

I have always found X attractive I never denied that, but I was previously in love with one of X’s friends which she introduced me to and she was breaking up with someone when i first met her (that guy is currently my best friend). We both helped each other get over the other person and we have ALWAYS, and when I always I mean ALWAYS been there for each other. For the last three years I have denied ever having feelings for her but that was until around 4 months ago where I realised I did. I realised that I have feelings for her I just never realised.

We had a 3 day formal conference at school, for the while before that i’d compliment her outfits and compliment her and whatever but at the end of this conference she was extremely emotional, she hugged me and then walked off to leave, at the moment right there I literally thought to myself I cannot let this woman go. That’s cause it’s her last year in the city then she’s going off to uni. It hit me so hard that I literally called out her name so she could come to me and I acted as if I had something to say where in reality I had literally nothing to say I just didn’t want her to go.

Our friendship hasn’t been the same ever since then. We somehow got even closer which I didn’t think is possible. It’s so weird. We flirt every now and then with each other, I have told some of my friends about her POTENTIALLY liking me which i actually still don’t think so, and when I told them they thought it was absurd but when they saw our texts and some of the stuff we said to each other they thought we were hiding a secret relationship.

I don’t remember everything we have ever said but off the top of my head this is what’s significant :

We built an Alphabet dating list

We wanted to go out together alone but unfortunately that couldn’t happen so we had to bring others along due to her parents and stuff

Every once in a while she brings up other guys with the intention of pissing me off because she knows that I get jealous over her

She keeps teasing me saying stuff like “want me all for urself yeah ?” which i admit that i do and ask her if there’s a problem and says “no.”

We have established the fact that she’s my bitch …

It may not sound like a lot but knowing how she is and the way we used to be this is NOT how she used to act, please bare in mind there’s sooooo much more that happened and that was SAID ON TEXT specifically but I can’t remember a lot. I am kind of in a predicament right now and dont know what to do or what to think.