Hey, 22M here. Story time(not a good orator) - met a girl in my first year of college we dated for an year,, I broke up with her. Things got argumentative towards the end plus she was going through a bad year so I feel was not much living her life happily. Now I am in my 4th year college retrospecting on everything realising both of us weren't wrong and both of us really loved each other, just the time wasn't right. Saw her at the last day of college we both were just seeing each other and my heart just ache, my breath started getting faster, I became numb just looking at her eyes. I have explored with others throughout the graduation never was interested in going long term with them, mostly hookups. She also dated some men. Last year a girl I was seeing casually confessed that she have strong feelings for me and wants to take it to long term, although she could have been a potentially good partner I refused. The last call I had with her, she said that I still haven't moved on from my this 1st year ex. Since then haven't dated anyone, thinking that I might still be in love with her and was trying to move on. Couldn't aparent from the last day of college. Now the thing is we started talking again (the 1st year ex and me), i still feel I love her, we are going to meet again. Initially I thought i'll just confess I still love her and want to give it a try(I really can't forget her plus I feel she is exactly compatible for me). She might move to another city because of job, it might get LDR soon after us getting back.

My only question is how to be sure I really love her(can be a physiological reaction to being alone and not in a long term relationship for so long or not finding the girl i wanted in the 6-7 women I saw casually). Plus will my life be happier being in the love long term relationship or an arranged relationship further 5-6 years down the line with some girl probably from a better family. I really want to be successful in my career. Like how to be sure which is the correct path, how to be sure that I really love her or not. You may judge me. I am open to opinions.