So here's the story. I'm a 42 year old woman and I've only been with 3 men in my whole life. All 3 have been relationships by the way. I'm disabled... I have a joint disease which makes it difficult walk alot so I do use a wheelchair. This makes dating difficult and it gets lonely. I recently met a guy and we have been talking over the phone only and both of us had one thing in common we were lonely and both of us hadn't been intimate in a long time... for me it's been a year a 3 months . My ex was the last guy I was with and it was a bad relationship. So anyways this guy and I planned on meeting up and spending the night together, but things with his job kept getting in the way and he actually had to go on a work trip for 2 weeks. We've been still texting every day and talking about how excited we both were to meet and be with each other... and for me especially its difficult to find a guy who I feel comfortable with being disabled and stuff and he was accepting of that and I really was starting to like him. We kept talking about waiting for each other because I joked around about 2 weeks is a long time to wait for a guy I haven't seen yet and maybe some other guy might sweep me off my feet, and he kept saying that he was worth the wait and everything. So I have been waiting for him. Now here's the issue I'm having. Yesterday, he messaged me in the morning that Saturday night he just couldn't take it anymore and he paid for sex with an escort! I was shocked. OK, he's a single man and he can do what he wants and stuff, but he's been telling me to wait for him and he knew I was here waiting for him to get back and he just screws another woman.... an escort at that. He was like, well I just couldn't take it anymore. My hand wasn't doing it for me anymore. So I'm not worth waiting for? that's how i really feel? I do respect the fact that he was honest about it, so I am torn about it. Because we weren't in a relationship yet but we were both waiting for each other and he like broke that promise it feels like. Plus now if I would still meet him and we ended up sleeping together, I'm going to compare his experience with the professional against his experience with me... because I'm not experienced. I only been 3 guys and really never had much sex with any of them... and to top it off, I can't do things that the escort probably did with him... meaning certain positions because of my arthritis. He does still want to meet me. He has apologized to me and he seems genuinely sorry. Am I just overreacting here? Please any advice would help. Thank you