Before I even start writing anything, I hope there’s no judgements as this is a weird issue I have been dealing with.

I am brown and I was in a long term relationship with another brown guy, but he had vitiligo. So even tho he was brown, he looked like a white person. I wouldn’t say face wise he was that good looking, more like average, but he was tall and had a nice body naturally. One thing that made it easy to have a physical relationship was also the fact that he was hygienic.

Not even gonna get into the story about why we broke up, just know he was those soft spoken narcissistic men, that makes you question whether you are the problem and makes you feel crazy while snatching everything away from you.

But anyways, I do want a man who is also brown, it’s a preference for me and a requirement for my family. Now please do not start a whole speech about I should not listen to my parents blah blah I want to marry a brown men because It’s my preference first than anything. A lot of things matter, culture, mentality, inside jokes, religion, et cetera it’s easier that way.

But yes other than some really good looking brown actors, I am now finding it hard to date brown people because even tho I dated one, physically he was a white person. It’s like it somehow became my type even if I didn’t want it to be. I also worry whether the next person will be hygienic and keep clean.

Is there a way to overcome it?