For context, a year has gone by post a very bad breakup with my now ex whom I (M23) dated for over 4.5 years. The relationship was perfect on my end but she ended up being unfaithful and we broke up. I had been a 1 woman man kinda guy my whole life.

Post my breakup I missed the warmth of companionship so I got in another relationship, but after a while I started losing interest but didn’t want to breakup so I went behind my gfs back and had one night stands and FWBs.

The problem is, with my gf, I kinda love the companionship thing but I just don’t feel like committing and thought these casual relationships will make me happy but then even they don’t.

In no way I mean to glorify cheating and infidelity but I’m torn inside because I really don’t know what I want. Serious relationships don’t make me happy, casual relationships don’t make me happy, I just don’t feel that kind of perfect feeling as I did with my ex anymore.

Is this gonna stay the same forever?