In a relationship for over 3 years and engaged now. We spoke about swinging and group “activities” when we got together and were both open to it.(and I also know she had an open relationship arrangement with her ex husband) more and more as the relationship goes on she keeps mentioning me being able to do whatever I like as long as “I don’t come home with a disease or a baby” her words… I know neither of us have acted on what we discussed before but now I find myself wondering if she wants me to because that’s her kink or because she wants the open part we discussed to begin. I know that excitement is a huge factor with new partners and always was for me in previous relationships but that was me being a dick and cheating. As I have had permission (I guess) since the beginning I haven’t felt any desire to but I also had to grow a lot to change and not be who I was before. It’s just confusing honestly.. we will be out places and she will point out other women to me wayyyyy more often than I notice them. Honestly any opinions and advice are welcome.