We met on Grindr 3 weeks ago. We hit it off from the start, and there was some "feeling" between us already on the first day. He told me he was looking to get to know people and was open to whatever happened. I've been avoiding developing romantic attraction for years due to my disappointments in the past (I've never been in a relationship). I thought I could let me feel if I became attracted.

We met in person our third day. And I became romantically attracted to him (just romantically). At the same time, he became sexually attracted (just sexually). We have been seeing each other 2-3 times a week (and only because we can't more times right now). But with different expectations due to the different kind of attractions we have. Each time has ended in us having sex. With some complications on my part the first 4 times, but eventually it all worked and then I became sexually attracted too. This was a week ago.

It's worth mentioning that we have only been seeing each other very late at night (usually around 2AM) and in his car in remote places, since we neither have a place of our own. I have told him multiple times that I also want to meet in other situations during the day, but he always skips the question.

Around the time I started becoming sexually attracted (maybe before), I also started to develop a crush on him. As I said, this was past week.

Our "relationship" (whatever it is) peaked after an amazing encounter but after that (this week) things have started to go downhill. We have been hurting each other almost daily due to my fears and insecurities.

In brief, I told him I started having feelings for him and he told me he doesn't want to allow himself to develop feelings. He told me we wouldn't even be meeting if he didn't enjoyed the sex with me. I felt really bad after this, and since then we have been clashing multiple times, and today we are at a point where we have been considering stopping.

He has reiterated only wanting sex, and I have reiterated wanting a relationship. He proposed being FWB without feelings attatched. I proposed stopping to talk and seeing each other for good because he can't give me what I want. But neither of us really want to end this. Besides the sexual encounters, we have been chatting everyday from morning to night. He is always interested in what I'm doing, we both enjoy our conversations. He doesn't even reject my romantic advances despite what he says. We have something that isn't labeled, but makes us both feel really well and we would deeply miss that if we parted ways.

I've decided to keep giving him a chance in the case he decided to let the feelings flow. And because I don't want to stop talking with him or seeing him. I don't want to be hurt due to lack of reciprocation, but I would never know if he could reciprocate me by ending it now.

But I'm still a bit conflicted, and I want opinions on the situation. I'm following my feelings and I may be irrational and be making a big mistake and don't notice it.

It's a very long post already, but I can provide even further details in comments if you ask me.